So a few months ago, I escaped the 9 to 5 life. AND IT’S BLOODY BRILLIANT.
I decided that I needed to spend more time with my kids and with my life, actually enjoying it. I was working an obscene amount of hours per day, not really seeing the kids and generally burning out. It’s so hard to find that balance. I was talking to a good friend the other day about the ‘mum guilt’, that HORRIBLE, CRIPPLING guilt where you just can’t seem to figure out what option is best for your kids. You want them to grow up with a good work ethic, but you want to spend time with them, but you have bills to pay, but can you even find a job to fit around the hours you want for the money you need….ARGH, it is EXHAUSTING. Mentally, emotionally and physically EXHAUSTING.
I sat down with Andy, worked out the minimum I needed to earn and just decided to take the plunge. We decided that the possibility of failure was worth the risk. And it’s the best thing I have ever done. The change in the kid’s behavior was immediate. I mean, we have well-behaved kids anyway, but their whole demeanor just changed, it lifted, like they suddenly had a weight lifted off their shoulders.
My behavior (I feel like a naughty child when I talk about my behavior LOL) has also changed, so I have been told, but I do feel different. I have more energy, more patience, I just feel like me again. I mean look, I’m writing again!
It’s an amazing feeling waking up on Monday morning, not feeling full of dread. Being able to take off a day to have an impromptu adventure without having to ask anyone’s permission. Not having to go into full blown panic meltdown when summer holidays come around because you know your childcare bill will be more than your wage. BLISS.
BUT it does come with its own pitfalls, the pressure to make money is on your shoulders. I mean, yeah, of course, its the same when you work for a company, but you know that if you are ill or have a day off you are getting paid for it. Freelance, you don’t. Everything is down to you, tax, national insurance, insurance, data protection, budgets, marketing, web design….literally everything. But I love it. I have always been creative and pretty independent so being able to control it all and have everything as my own is incredible and SO worth the pressure.
It really is so liberating having full control of your life. Not having to work in an office from 9 to 5 every day. Working in your garden when the sun is shining or in the local coffee shop when you want to interact with people (it can get a bit isolating at times), working from wherever, whenever.
So if you are thinking about taking the plunge, I would totally, wholeheartedly recommend it. It will change your life!